- Its been a while... - Tuesday, July 8, 2008 Well i didnt end up writing again after may 14th, 2008! lol, probably because tht night on my way to the club he called me and wanted to meet with me! UGH! and me like a stupid dropped my friend off and ran to him like a little puppy! well we made up tht night and have been pretty much close ever since...he's been trying to be involved with me and the baby!...im 5 months now! it was perfect, we would argue but we would get over it and move on...he was working on his temper and he was changing a little bit! spending nights, helping me decide the baby's name! he even gave me a ring on the 4th of july! a promise ring...promising to love me and the baby unconditonally, to take care of his baby no matter what, and to be faithful! i was so excited! it was a very beautiful ring! i couldnt take my eyes of it! and we got into an arguement yesterday...well he took the ring back! and i broke up with him because he always thinks he's right and im wrong, he also puts everything on me and its just ridiculous, but as im writing i dnt want it to be over...just because we were doing sooooo good, and now look! we are not even together! its like going from the 10th floor to the basement w/out going thru the other levels...and thts why its pissing me off...there was no downfall! it was just like BOOM! but im frustrated because i cant get thru to him and i cant get my way! not @ all! its like WTF! can i ever be right?! not even tht, but can u ever be wrong?!?! so im torn rite now as im writing this, and i think im gonna call him and make stuff rite...im sooo weak, man! i can never be strong enuff to just stick to how i feel and not get all sentimental! ugh! i hate the fact tht im tht way! but then again i cant stay mad @ ppl to save my friggin' life! and thts just how i am! i think the only way tht im gonna WANT to leave gary is if i find out he's cheating on me! thts totally the only way! or if he doesnt treat our son like he's suposed to! well i will try to update tomorrow...hopefully! lol ::xoxo::

posted by E.Kaye @ 6:34 PM 1 Comments: At July 8, 2008 at 7:05 PM,  Lana Mae Kamer said... Underneath it all you sound like a strong woman and I think you're not giving yourself enough credit! You are smart and insightful. Listen,little sister, all of us have done things because of guys that sells us short of what we really deserve. You will learn through time to value yourself more and to settle only for the best! For now, you are doing the best you can-that's to be commended.Keep moving forward and keep putting one foot ahead of the other. You will get there! Just passing through on a blog hop-you can bounce back to me or not-as you wish. But I hope you'll keep on keeping on and keep on blogging... Prayers and hugs, Lana Baker   Post a Comment << Home